see my hand if you meet me someday

this night, i'm cutting my self again after i get absent to do it for 1 years.
now i use a nail cutter to injured my hand.

dunno what happen with me,
i feel alone, sad, hurt, unloved, disappointed, hhh.. but i dunno why?

i just know, Jesus will be angry with my injured this night.
i feel my life so broken.

i'm sorry God.
until now, i can't be a nice daughter in Your eyes,
and always i can't

i dont know why now i be a rebel.
so sorry God make You sad again thinkin' about me.